On Process, Paranoia and Paperwork

10.26.06

Yesterday was an hellatious day. For some reason all of the student want to cram their appointments in on that day. And, a lot of them need math. Add on top of tha the fact that my partner and myself and working on the California Math Project videos. Between keeping the students who were drifting in happy and trying to keep the continuity of the video going, it was a hell of a morning. What I am trying to come to terms with is that the process is the art. How you approach the work, how you feel while you are doing it, the spiritual gifts inherent in the process are what matters more than the finishe product.

A Couple of Weeks Later

It's been a long haul the last couple of weeks. But getting used to the idea of being on the remediation schedule. The paperwork is grueling though and it doesn't suit my personality but records have to be kept. My friend Caty says it's important to the kids and that's reason enought to do it. I need more of a reason to sit for hours at a desk putting tiny details on paper than because some beaurocrat says so.

Did my first math lesson with the digi blocks today on my own. A dismal failure that was.

Seriously doubting if I want to be teacher.

Today at least I felt like I was integrating a bit of my personality with the job.

I took 5 boys to the park today to take pictures. I felt pretty good about taking them to the park and showing them a bit of the basics of taking photo story pictures.

Tommorows friday and my neck hurts.